Russell Edward Smith

Dad,
I love you very much and will have you in my heart forever. I miss you everyday and wanted to spend my birthday with you. I remember one birthday in particular I had the flu what a day to have the flu and it was a tradition me and cousin Scott always celebrate birthdays together born the same day in all. I felt so bad that day but didnt want to disappoint anyone so I made it thru and presents were being passed out and I opened yours you picked out for me it was my 14th birthday I remember and inside the box was a watch. You got me a grown up wrist watch I had been wanting a watch for so long and there it was a wonderful beautiful watch my dad picked out especially for me. I was so thrilled it took every ounce of my energy to get up and hug you I really wanted to jump up and down and shout out loud but was so weak and I hope you knew how thrilled I was to get a watch of my very own.
It made my day and I will never forget it for as long as I live. I love feeling you walk with me and are around me always you watch over and care for me and it means everything to me daddy. I love you and cant wait to be with you again someday.
Love your daughter Melissa

Hi Dad,It's me Sabrina.
I almost forgot what day it is.Sorry! A person can get caught up in things here.It's not like there in Heaven!
Anyway I miss you pops and wish you were on the other end of the phone when I have a notion to call you.Which is a lot. I got a hold of Karen and Aunt Miahael,it is also Uncle Bobs birthday.I bet you guys are having one heck of a party up there.Wish I was there.But I will be one day.
I love you dad.You have a great Birthday.

Dad,
Im missing you so much and wish things still could be differnt. I wish the most is you could of met Kirsten, She is such a cutie pie. Really filling out and I just love her to pieces.
I know you would love her too. Im sure you can hear her wailing out when she is hungry.
I think about you all the time and cant wait to see you again.
Keep watchin over all of us and be happy you deserve it that the truth.
Will be together soon I hope.
I love you daddy
Love Melissa

Dad I still cry, it hurts so much it isnt ever gonna be better till I hear your voice again. I miss so dearly our talks and your advice and mostly your understanding and love you showed me. You were my best friend, always understood and listened to my complaints and always made me feel better. I wish you wouldnt of went away. I want to hear you say love you honey. I want to see you. I want to feel your brushy beard scraping against my cheek when I give you a kiss on the cheek.
Every time I think of you it still lonely, But I know when I come to heaven to see my unborn children that past away before being born that you are there with them talkin to them telling them all the pain I was growin up but how much you loved me. Letting them know that I love them very much and want to meet them very badly for us all to be together.
I can still hear your voice, You got a great grand daughter about to be born here with in the next week. I am so sad you never got the chance to see them or hold either one of Killians little girls.
They surely would of loved their great grandpa.
I love and miss you dad and cant wait to see you to hear your voice again. Just know that I love you with all of my heart and forever will.
Your daughter Melissa
XOXOXOXO

Daddy,
I am missing you more each day. I think about you all the time. Its that I dont know if your wanting me to know something tryin to tell me something or what. But it is so strong. I think cause I am so stressed at work and I am at work more than I am at home I got so much going on I am not leaving a opening for me to hear what your sayin to me.
Oh daddy Wow ok I know what it is just this instant, you want me to know your with me when I am loosing my mind at work. Thats why your presence is more stronger when I am at work.
I knew I should of just asked you when I was at work what you wanted to tell me.
I wish I could hold your hand hug you tight kiss your bushy brushy bearded cheek again. I miss you so much.
Arent you so proud of Killian he really has turned around. Not the punk kid anymore. Really has grown up. Hes thriving in his new job. Dont miss a day. He has so impressed his boss that his boss works him with him. Told him that he is making him his apprentice, he is training him to work the office, go on job recruits, setting prices, setting up jobs. Teaching him the ends and outs of the whole business. Said in a couple yrs he wants to turn it over to him to be top supervisor to run the shop and all the guys, cause he doesnt want to have to be there all the time, the boss that is. Killian has shown him that he has intergrity and honesty and hard dependable worker. I am so happy for him, so very proud. I am so happy you have been able to turn him around.
Russ, he has really taken after you dad. He has such a loving and generous heart. There isnt anything he wouldnt do for me. He is so loving. Got the biggest heart of anyone I know. Always there to help mom. He is a special gift from God too as is Killian. I know I was meant to have those two boys they have saved my life and made it oh so sweet. I wouldnt change a thing about having them.
I just wanted you to know which you already do that I love you and miss you and cant wait to see you again and watch over the boys and help them the right direction so we all can be in heaven together daddy.
Missing you so much I love you daddy. Melissa

I was 2 when I left and 5 when we met again.Mom says I knew who you were right away.After 3 years of not seeing you I knew who you were.I ran in your arms yelling daddy.When I get to Heaven I am gonna run into your arms again yelling daddy.It might be 3 years or 30 years but I will be in your arms again.Happy Fathers Day,DAD!!!!!

Daddy,
I have been missing you so much today I was so sad and then you touched me and took away the hurt. I am honored to be your daughter and love you so much. Thank you for your strength.
I wish you could of gotten to see your other grand daughter before you went away but I know your lookin down on her she is a sweetie isnt she. Makes me smile.
Even though it is hard to bare that your gone, I know you had to go, you suffered way too long cause you loved us so much. I am happy that your no longer in pain and are able to see my unborn children and your mom that you have missed for so many yrs. Your dad your brothers, all your family that you have missed for so long. I know you watch over all of us every day and I hope your not sad I hope you only see the good things. Thank you for sending your love everyday and being Killian guardian angel and taking care of him.
I am looking forward to having all eternity with you daddy. Keep watching over us as I know you will and know that I love and miss you every day. There isnt a day I dont feel you with me at some point in the day when I am down you bring me up. Daddy I never told you this but I wouldnt trade you for any other daddy ever. You are my everything and always will be. I love you Dad with all my heart and spirit. Enjoy being with Jesus you deserve it. Wish you could come tell me what heaven is like, I know you would if you could Im just waiting for you to come to me in my dreams daddy. Love you Melissa

Dad,
How I miss you so badly. There has been so much happen since you have left here.
I am sad that you never got to see your newest great grand daughter Savannah.
She is a sweetheart. You would of loved her.
The boys miss you so much. Sometimes it just doesnt seem real you not here with us anymore.
To me your still on Southside. I couldnt drive over there for the longest time.  I got your blanket I got you for Christmas, I wrap up in it knowing that it once laid across you. I have your tshirt and socks and I try to smell your shirt just so I can smell you on it but it is fading. I dont want to loose that scent.
I miss you so bad and wish I could take back time and I would visit and call u everyday. I really didnt think you would go when you did. Im sorry so desperately sorry I didnt come the day I said I would the day you left. How I regret that, it tears me up.
I miss you sayin Hey Babe when you gonna come and see me, I miss bringing you some orange pop and pumkin pie on Thanksgiving. The holidays were so empty this yr. It was hard for me not to let anyone know how hurt I was feeling.
I love you dad I cant stand it sometimes. I want to call you and talk to you but I cant. I havent taken your number off my cell phone.
I love you daddy and I miss you with all of my soul and spirit and heart.
Your daughter Melissa

Christmas was here and you werent. i miss picking up the phone and calling you,i have your picture on my coffee table and I see you every day.But I know we will see each other again. So tell me what is heaven like?Is it like we imagined?Prolbaly better,hu?I love you dad!

Hi dad, How's heaven? Earth is the same,pain,bills,sorrow.I am so glad you dont have to deal with it any more even if I miss you terribly.Have you met Jesus yet?I bet He's an awsome sight!I know He will take great care of you.I love you daddy.Miss you too.Your 2nd born,Sabrina

I am so sorry for your loss.  You are in my thoughts and prayers.